Searching for life one leaves life

For the teachings say leave life

Thoughts, logic and rationale fill the heart

Holding on becomes stronger and tighter

If life is to be left why was it given?

If I had to be a celibate why then celebrate

Each moment of teaching makes me stare

The stony stare of fear and anger fills the essence

Each verse contradicts the other verse

Each teacher holds on his vice tells others to leave it

Life given was withheld for search only remained

Why teaching of body was withheld to know the soul

Remove the body and soul merges back

It is bodies that make soul re-emerge again

Love known for love unknown left me in isolation

Pain, trauma and suffering made me believe the lies

Made me a slave and cut me off from life itself

Self-recognition ended the path of separation

A moment of truth made me see hearts of gold

Center of all centers and core of the core

I in flesh and blood is the core I know for I am
The light has burned all that was clinging to me

Expanse of within expanded to cosmic limit

What else is outside that which is not in me

Infinite light of Soul made me realise the Mitra

Mitra of the time and space, illuminated for all

Light of stars appearing one night

In a thousand years

Can you hold, believe, adore and preserve

The light showing the infinite city of Isā

For generations to remember for

It may not happen again

Come back again to life for it is the essence

It is the only way for one to know the teachings

Leave the conditions out, the ways and methods out

Holding on to a carcass, donot look for life

It shall never come for it is not for you.

(January 15, 2011)

~Maitreya Rudrabhayananda

From Maitreya Apotheosis Series- Morning Verses